No more job.

I lost my job yesterday, laid off. I will go into more detail later. But i needed to get that out. Because i’m lost, confused, sad, and basically any and every other emotion that one would feel when they lose a job they love.

The only saving grace is that my family is here to lift me up.

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Yesterday didn’t count. I cried for the most part all day. It sucked, the unknown, it was out of the blue.

To sound perfectly cliche, when your my age, I define myself by my career. My career is everything to me. My friends, from college, and high school, do not define themselves by their job. They have husbands, and children. I know that it’s wrong to define myself by my career, but I’ve worked so hard for it, I honestly felt like everything is gone. The music industry is something that it is ok to jump from job to job, but for  a company to fold, that I moved back to Washington for, it was just plain shocking. To think everything I’ve done for the last 8 months at this smaller label was complete and utter shit, is tragic.

The other thoughts I’ve been having are about my boss who had to let me go, this is his company and no matter how bad it sucks for me, it sucks way more for him.

Day 1 - was working on my resume. Applying for unemployment, and starting to think about what I want to do with my life now, that I have hit this bump in the road…

Do I want to stay in this specialized field, or do I want to do something mundane that I really don’t need to think about. I guess, everything will unfold and things will be ok.

I’m trying to rely on God, and the fact that He has a plan for me, and I can not plan out my life anymore. I keep telling myself, that somewhere, in this there is a blessing.

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-By fellow tumblrer +likesdinosaurs.