Today, I forced myself up at 8am. That is the time I would have normally gotten up to go to work. I figure this whole finding a new job thing needs to be approached as if it was my job. So I got up at 8. I don’t know why but I sat in my pajamas until 2pm. I felt better after i showered and did my hair, and put different clothes on. I guess it made me feel like I had a purpose even if I was just going to sit at a desk, write endless cover letters and send out my resume. I don’t know if you are supposed to use a basic cover letter or write them individually, also do you rearrange the bullet points on your resume in order of experience for the job you are looking for? I did today, I hope this effort pays off. All of these jobs I also applied for said do not call or email. I think my personality comes off better in person, not on paper. I don’t know how to get my resume at the top of the stack.

I pretended that this (unemployment) is not going to be long.. Is what  I’m feeling normal? I’m not sure, my brother, (a gift from god) texted me words of encouragement, and sent emails of jobs I was under-qualified for (Vice presidents of marketing, product management for fortune 500 companies) It’s nice to know he thinks I could be a vice president for Nintendo…

It’s a weird feeling because I continue to have the fresh out of college mindset. The last time I had to look for a job was after I graduated college. I need to remind myself, that I have a bachelors degree, and that I have experience, why do I doubt myself? This music industry is still alive and kicking and some places are actually hiring. Even if I don’t continue to work in the music industry, I’m not worried, I don’t think I need to define myself by my job anymore. It is quite a slippery slope.

I know it is only day 2. I am empathetic for people who have been out of work for longer, some of my dad’s friends who are in construction have been out of work for months. I can’t even imagine what that would feel like.

Last night, the monkey came over, she helped me clean the goldfish’s tank and we made cupcakes. (I had two goldfish that a coworker had given me and they lived in my office.) She never had made cupcakes before or put icing on them. You should of seen her face when she put the sprinkles on. She was so proud and it was worth it. Thank goodness she took a dozen home and her aunt stopped by so we gave her a bunch. We were only left with a few which honestly, no one in this house will probably eat. But hey, it kept my mind occupied for a few hours.

Oh is it normal to not sleep? Last night and the night before, sleep has not come easy. I’m sure it is stress but crap, what is a person supposed to do?

Right before I sat down to type this out my friend Autumn, texted me about a possible opening at her job. Hopefully that could work out. At least for now, so I can do something.

-By fellow tumblr +likesdinosaurs.

Missed Day 1? Read it here.