I’m starting to feel like Doogie Howser with these daily entries. (Remind me to write about the time we met him last year.)

Today I went to a job fair. Ok, I went in smiling, with a positive outlook and hoping for opportunities, what I got was a job fair that really didn’t have much for opportunities. I mean, I’m sure the military is great for some people, but really? that is not what was advertised on the ad for it. And also — Mary Kay? There is nothing wrong with people who sell Mary Kay, I’m sure its a great product, but for the few thousand people at this Job Fair, I’m sure they all felt the same way I did.

I have not heard back from unemployment, I should know by friday. Keeping my fingers crossed.

My student Loans however, have been deferred for a few months. This was probably a highlight of my day.

Some good things have happened, I received two emails about positions I had applied for. One position looks amazing, and if I had an interview I’m sure I would have a good chance of getting the position. Plus, the feeling of not doing enough to help others would be gone.

Oh and one of my good friends sent me a piece of mail that had me smiling all day. She wrote a rap and drew some dinosaurs on it.  It made my day. I mean, I really like dinosaurs.

“For many people a job is more than an income - it’s an important part of who we are.  So a career transition of any sort is one of the most unsettling experiences you can face in your life.”  ~Paul Clithero

-By fellow tumblr +likesdinosaurs.

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Missed Days 1 - 7?  Read them here.

It’s official. I’ve now been out of work a week. I’ve gone through so many emotions to end up being frustrated and sad, and confused and regretful. I moved to Washington for this job. I could still be in California and be making money. However, I would be away from my family.

I’ve discovered that putting my shoes on today made me feel like I had a purpose, even if i didn’t actually go anywhere except to mow the front and backyard. Which I suppose is a perk. But other than that the downside is so much more. I feel like a failure. The guy who laid me off, is trying to not fold the label, he is going to make the interns I hired try to put out the last project I was working on. I’m sorry but it really makes me mad to think he is going to use the interns that I hired to finish a project I laid all the groundwork for using my friends / relationships to get this done. He then posted this as a twitter today  ”Taking the office on a field trip to Dennys today. GRAND SLAMS ON THE BOSS TODAY PEOPLE!! It’s your lucky day if you work @destinyww!” Now I know that it’s free day at Denny’s but I follow him and it kinda hurt to read that. I wish I worked somewhere. To top that off he texted me yesterday to meet up so I can transition everything to him.

Tomorrow I’m heading to a job fair. The only thing I can hope for is that it will get me out of the house for a day.

-By fellow tumblr +likesdinosaurs.

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Missed Days 1 - 3?  Read them here.

This weekend, I tried to put off be being unemployed. My weekend had been planned for weeks, My sister-in-law’s birthday party, a craft day, golf tournament, meeting with a photographer for my cousins wedding. All of these things should have been fun, and honestly they were, except the dreaded question, “How’s the job?” just a reminder that these people know me for what i do. I awkwardly went into the conversation this is how they looked over and over.

Friend: “Hows your job?”

me: “i was laid off on monday.”

Friend: “What? I thought things were going well”

me: “I thought so too”

Friend: “didn’t you just get a new office?”

me: “yep, it sucks”

Friend: “i’m sorry”

me: “thanks”

Imagine this conversation happening over and over, at things i just wanted to be normal at.

All in all it was a good weekend, I love my friends so it’s nice having them around. But each time i say I was laid off, makes it more real.

-By fellow tumblr +likesdinosaurs.

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Missed Days 1 - 3?  Read them here.

Today I am angry. Not much else to say other then I am angry at the choices that led me to getting laid off. I hate that I was promised I would be fine if our business expanded but obviously not. Ugh. Pissed.

-By fellow tumblr +likesdinosaurs.

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Missed Days 1 - 3?  Read them here.